Here’s what I don’t get… Why do guys think it’s cool to lead a girl on & then completely drop them?

It’s not cool to talk to a girl, get her hopes up, tell you how much you like her & then drop her. 

Seriously, I don’t understand. 

I found this on Facebook just recently, I thought it was incredible and I wanted to share it with you..

“Facebook has been an interesting place today. It’s encouraging to see the tremendous support of my generation for the rights of people who, for so long, have been looked down upon, called names, and been treated like lesser human beings. On the other hand, it makes me sick to see people speak against marriage equality, using (well, misusing) religion and the Bible as their backing on the issue. In case you haven’t yet been informed, let me be the first to let you know that our country was founded with no national religion and a clear separation between church and state (if you would like to live in a country where laws are made based on religious beliefs, I’d be happy to make some recommendations for you; you can move there and live happily). Just because something does not affect you personally doesn’t mean it does not affect your friend, your neighbor, your co-worker, or anyone else you interact with in your daily life. There is no reason to infringe on the rights of others when their life choices do not harm you in any way. The way I see it, if you oppose gay marriage, then don’t marry somebody of the same sex— simple as that. Otherwise, be kind to others and let them live their lives the way you’re allowed to live yours.” 

Yes I am a Christian.

Yes I support Marriage Equality for everyone.

Just imagine how you would feel if someone told you that you couldn’t marry who you love. Take the religion aspect out of it for a second and think about it. If you don’t like it, I’m sorry but times are changing.

No freedom til we’re equal- Macklemore. #MarriageEquality

Dear future boyfriend, we will read The Fault In Our Stars together and Looking For Alaska. We need to be together so when John Green decides to make my heart explode of sadness you will be there to make me feel better. Thank you. Love, your future girlfriend 

ed sheeran, my best friend & a cup of tea. 

tonight has been great.

That moment when you realize no one has any interest in you and you’ll probably be alone forever.

i just saw a picture of my ex on facebook and i have no idea how to feel about it. so let me explain a few things to you before you gather your judgement…

we’ve known each other for 7 years, we dated off and on for 3. we planned everything together and by everything i mean EVERYTHING. when we’d get married, who would chase their dream, where we’d live; you know all of that crazy talk.

now keep in mind we lived across the country from each other- when i lived in montana we went out once & i actually dated his best friend- anyway. we did the phone calls and the skype dates and he even planned to come see me one summer. but of course, like all relationships do it came to an abrupt end.

 his reasoning for leaving my life was “he felt like God was telling him that he didn’t need me in his life” and of course i took it like most people would; i told him that he was crazy and that i had always been there for him and one day because he was leaving for church camp he wanted to no longer be in my life? it hurt like hell and i was confused but i learned to accept it and i moved on.

now let me tell you about this boy, like actually tell you things about him. his name is Michael Lawrence Druesdow and i was completely in love with him. 7 years of him being my best friend, staying up late telling him things about my life that most people don’t know. he wrote me letters and told me all kinds of stories about his school and the friends we used to share. he would make me laugh on my darkest days and always tell me that i was beautiful. i loved this boy. 

so lets now talk about when he came home (if you’re still reading this, then you are a trooper). he came home about two weeks after telling me that he no longer wanted to talk to me. he texted me and asked if we could talk, and of course i said yes; i mean after all i loved this boy. we got on skype and he told me all about it and right then and there i knew, that a part of me couldn’t love him the same. he could tell that i was unhappy and just decided that we no longer needed to talk. i called him crying that night and i told him about all of my feelings, how bad it hurt when he left and you know what he said?

“i’m sorry mikayla, but i don’t love you. you’re not good enough for me right now”

now i should tell you about how he is now… well the boy i loved turned into a boy that i could hate. he’s into drugs and partying. he has no job and no plans for his future. he got kicked out of the air force for doing drugs and trespassing on someones property. this is not my boy; this is not the boy i loved.

so now i will explain about the picture. do you ever have one of those moments when all the memories come flooding back? where your heart hurts because you know that no matter what you could say today things would still be the same? yeah, that’s what happened. the gut wrenching pain came back, after the past year it’s still there. 

i know i have to move on and part of me has, but there’s always going to be that part of me that still wishes would could have made things work. the worst part is that i’ll see him this summer and i have no control over it. 

anyway my pointless rambling and scatter brain post is over. if you read it, congratulations you just caught a glimpse of my life that most people don’t ever see, so you’re one of a kind.

my idea, crazy i know.

i love writing, & i love getting handwritten letters- because let’s face it, that kind of stuff never goes out of style.

i’ve always wanted to write someone a letter; whether it be about my life, music, the weather, or anything in general. just so they know that someone out there wants to be their friend- because everyone at some point in their life feels hopelessly alone.

so i was thinking that i would do that. one day soon. just start writing and explain pretty much everything i’m telling you now. just so one day someone can open my letter and know that no matter what has gone on in their life, i will always be there to write back.

so maybe you think this is crazy, or maybe you want me to write you a letter. either way- you took the time to read this and maybe you’re thinking “hey this girl is crazy, but i need a friend” well now is your chance. 

leave me your thoughts. 

-mikayla jade.